commen test

hmm....
eng past!!!!!!
by 1 mark~~ nvm
still past lol
luck me still

haiz..
y i cant control my mind
y y y y y y y y y y y

my stand is not firm

my not firm stand had cause all this happen
is my wrong to do
my wrong forget
haiz...
y am i feelin i am empty
wat cause this
where is the root of all this
do i no
or i am lyin to myself
is all my wrong
wherewherewherewherewhereisit
where
where to look for e answer
how
should i
should i just speak out my feelin
should i?
can i?
may i?
arg!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
how piss off i can be
i deeply truely madly hate myself
to no extend....
no..
i am in deep trouble find the way
always lost as usual

k i did it

ya i did it
but i feel worst
worst ever...
she change her blog...
ya...
now i feel trrible

hopefully..

hopefully u wont get angry or wat..
hopefully u somehow join me n ch's bro gang haha..
hopefully 1 day we really go tour together..
hahaha...abit greedy hor so many hopefully
lolxxxxx
k k
got to sleep
bye

get over

k i think i need to get this shit over fast n clear..
ya...tml i will return u to ur bery 1st host..
though it is pain to return u..
i think i feel better after some time^^
ya its just like bro said
its just a matter of time...
u r rite due~

sick

arh~ sick
feeeeelin sux
haiz...a bit moody
e guilty in me built a thick n high wall
between her n me...i never felt gd whenever c her
i think i misunderstand wat she had written.
ya make a fool of myself again
hhahaha
i am stupid enough to send tt msg
lol~~ wat drive me do tt?!!!
i don understand myself 1s again

is tt me

feelin gd about wat i had read just now
kinda of bery nice nice mood haha
no matter tt ''he'' is me or not me...i am bery happy
as u open ur heart once again
happy for u~~
i think u forgot wat i had promiss be4
well...since u don rmb
,use e word ''hope''but not ''am sure''
i will say this again
there is alway a huge place for u in it...
or rather said it in this way..
u had taken it always with u long long long ago...

hmm

wat's wrong with me

wat is GEISHA about?

the memo of geisha
wat is it about...
after watch i feel kinda of respect for this girl in geisha
her mind was strong n her stand is firm
and she sacrifice
it was a hollywoodendin
however,i feel geisha is just a women who work on bery hard just to pls men
they were geisha because they were force to be
but in this time when we can chooce who we want to be..
tt's some ppl blindly want to be geisha..
wat the hell men
is her willin to sell herself
or she likes to circle around men to pls men or somethin?!
i cant understand
tt change my charge on who this very important person is in me..

when a rose nolong samll like a rose

now i believe..
i believe everything has its expire date
and tt's a time rose will fade and lost it smell
though it's name is still rose
but it's ugly n never smell good
it irritate ppl
piss off ppl
wat els can it do
when wat's in the inside change
e name matter nothin

home is forever the nicest place

shit i miss out e sec1 sku camp
haiz nvm...

life in china is really cool
it's holdin my mind
i cant stop to think of it
every body suprise me when i saw them
then bigest suprise was she
kao!!!
i don even rmb when i have such sis when i was young
and she is kinda of beautiful n bery women
god....

then my bro~
his hair god dam nise
so long n cool

but i had my 1st car accident this year
sad